Wondering or Wandering?

Debating whether my mind has been wondering about everything or if I’m wandering with thoughts, hopes, and desires.

I find myself wandering through the grocery store, Target, and all those stores that make you feel at ease.. Right? I love grocery shopping, so whenever I’m there, its my way of feeling “normal” – whatever that is. Target almost makes me feel like nothing could bother me or get in the way of my happiness! Even if I walk out empty handed, I just love that place! EEK!

I catch myself wandering aimlessly through the aisles, not having a care in the world.. but when I start wondering, that’s when things get real.. I started in the make-up aisle, but now I’m in the furnishing aisle thinking about when/where I’ll be buying my first house, kids, marriage..CRAZY.. How do these stores do it?! It has to be the lighting….

For me, my mind goes one hundred directions and I don’t know what being “chill” is sometimes.

I’m sensitive, so I start thinking about things that have hurt or pained me.

I’m a fighter, so I think about how will I overcome these obstacles.

I’m a lover, so I think about how am I going to love everyone fairly.

When I think about all of this – it reminds me how small our problems really are – so I smile.

If you could see the whole Earth from outer space or where God watches over us, you’d discover that the unpleasantness we’re experiencing right now, was only the tiniest piece of a puzzle that was created with order, purpose, and absolute love. You’d see that contrary to what we’re feeling right now, in the grand scheme of things, that nothing is ever lost, no one becomes less, and setbacks are always temporary. And we’d understand that no matter what has happened, everyone lives again, everyone laughs again, and everyone loves again, even more richly than before.

Life truly is so precious. I mean, just look around – in your office, your neighborhood, the gym. There are people, right? Friends, family, or maybe complete strangers; seven billion of us.

And every single one of us has bumps in the road of life.. Adventures and choices that may take us out of sight, beyond reach, and eventually closer to our purpose(s). Yet until then, we’re so incredibly near, we have so much in common, and we have stories to tell. Think about that when you catch yourself judging, getting caught up in pettiness, or becoming obsessive over something that is unhealthy for you mentally or physically.

No need to rush; why hurry through the things that life throws at us, when that only gives us less time to live? Treasure every beautiful second and just be. Maybe things don’t make sense right now, or maybe lots of things don’t make sense at all – but what does your heart say?

Not sure how all of this translates to being at “ease” when I’m grocery shopping or walking through the aisles at Target, but I can’t believe this is the stuff I’m wondering about when I’m wandering (see what I did there?).

Start everyday, by taking action – whether it’s starting something new, moving on, telling someone how you feel, completing a goal – whatever it may be, take action and no day is wasted.

Love, love, love, and more love; live a life with love.


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